Thursday, June 5, 2008

Alien Hickies Again

I had an acupuncture appointment yesterday and because of how I've been feeling lately, Brodie decided to do cupping to acupressure points that have to do with the lung meridian or lung chi. I've been feeling pretty lonely. Between breaking up with my partner, going on a date that wasn't quite right, and then starting radiation therapy this week, I just felt all alone - all my friends are married, none have cancer, and I feel like I'm navigating this whole cancer thing all alone. At any rate, this particular treatment is supposed to help release those negative emotions. So, now I have alien hickies again and I do feel somewhat better! : )

My friends yesterday and today (thanks, by the way to Andrew, Tammy and Rick, and Scott) reminded me that I am not alone and that I can call on them any time and that it's okay to miss my partner, that I shouldn't have to navigate cancer by myself and also that's okay to need someone to just cuddle with sometimes. So, I feel a bit better . . . My family has been great, too, but I still wish I had a partner.


Carver said...

You look great in that shot, alien hickies and all. I'm glad you have good support from friends and family and it's ok to miss having a partner. I have a lot of respect for your honesty.

Dee said...

Hi Carver,
Thanks for the compliment - it is so hard to take a picture of yourself. I tried a few where I had a more stoic look - a slight Mona Lisa kind of smile and it looked like I was being forced. So, I hammed it up a bit and I found that I liked that picture better.

As for posting about the loneliness - well, I figure that's one reason why I created the blog, to keep my friends and family aware of how I'm doing. I don't have to tell the story a lot and people still give me support - like you. Thank you. I appreciate it!