I am saddened . . . And tired - earlier I was mad at the nurse

I didn't sleep well at all last night - too much caffeine I think - and then had to go without eating for my CT scan this morning. So I was not in a good mood at all. I ran into work to do some accounting stuff, then went to the scan.

I got mad at the IV nurse because she couldn't get blood return using the port in my arm - and yet the nurses at the Infusion Center haven't really had problems - so she stuck me twice in the port but rather than be gentle, she just jammed it in. Then she try to get blood by pressing hard on the port - ouch - like three times. She gave up and then decided to put in an IV on my other arm, right on the bone. Ouch again!

She was brusque, didn't apologize for her roughness, and then left.

I lay there crying in anger - and I had to be still for the CT scan - because I was just so tired to do much else. I got through the scan - it went fairly quickly when all was said and done. By that time, I had gathered myself and then told the tech I thought she was unnecessarily rough. But I said it calmly and didn't blame him. He apologized for her. Next time, I may get the IV started at the Infusion Center, where the nurses are compassionate and friendly and I know them. Then walk ocher to CT with everything ready to go.

Then, in catching up on other blogs and read about Daria, at Life With Cancer. She lives in Edmonton. Just last week, she was feeling melancholy because she felt like she was deteriorating. Unfortunately, it looks like she was right - her husband posted for her, said she wasn't able to post herself, and she was going to Hospice.

Damn cancer. Please send good thoughts and prayers to her and her husband. She has been fighting this for a long time, was always friendly, sweet, and supportive. She will be missed.