Saying "See ya Later"

My son's dad just came to pick him up. I won't see Eddie again until after my surgery - either Saturday or Sunday. The surgery's becoming more real to me and I started to cry after I closed the door. I'm gonna miss the little (tall) guy.

Eddie was asking questions about why I'm getting new boobs and why I had to get rid of the old ones. I told him that they had this disease called cancer in them and that if I didn't get rid of them, I might've died earlier than I wanted to. So, in order to live to see him grow up into an adult, I had the old boobs taken away.

I said that I was happy to be getting my new boobs. And, I will be. But, saying goodbye is still hard.

I think I just need to think of it as if Eddie was just going to his dad's for the week-end, which he is.